Broken record
Radio silence. Except it is not silent at all.
You hear a low continuous hum, a crackle, an occasional buzz. And the static noise is just that, static. Until it’s not really noise anymore. Just a lingering sound.
& you barely notice it, another month is over.
I have a problem with being in the moment. Everything just passes by too quickly. When The Boyz’ Juyeon said that the world is too fast for him, I laughed, and yet, I feel the same way.
So often I think about what comes next that the now is but a fleeting point in time. Just like how July was a blur. Nothing but a series of quick rain showers where the sky clears itself up before I could even feel the breeze. All I’m left with is the damn humidity; sticking to my skin like a ghost of a moment.
And I would be lucky if I even have these “ghosts” I could hold on to. More often than not, I do not even know what it is I am trying to recall. Did I really have a good day? Or am I convincing myself that I had a good day? I can’t quite find the difference.
Perhaps this is why people romanticize their lives. In all honesty, I want to be that kind of person. To have a film I could play that would let me remember. Clench that time of its purpose. To get an epilogue of sorts, even when I may have missed most of the plot. And not just have white noise playing at the back of my mind.
Maybe in the multiverse, a version of me is enjoying every bit of her every day. She may not have things figured out, but she dances to the song that plays. I surely hope so.
Going through phases,
Louise
P.S.
Today’s art is a little animation practice. Sadly, for reasons I do not know, the GIF version just won’t upload and I’ve given up. Like most things lately, this will do.
P.P.S.
Had to let it out somehow somewhere. Took a bit of a break in July. Thus, the self-bothering complacency. All this time to myself had me knee-deep into a new fandom. In conclusion, what I got from the past month was delusion and more K-pop babies to support! Literal children. Why TF are Gen 4 idols so young?! This is also why I am putting a STOP to my break. [laughs and cries in broke] I wouldn’t be exposing who they are yet because I AM IN ABSOLUTE DENIAL. NO THIS IS NOT REAL. (Lovingly but also, derogatory.) The algorithm is just playing tricks on me! Maybe if I swipe on my FYP really fast, their videos will eventually go away. 🕳👩🦯🤡
FREEBIE PRINTABLES
Was supposed to have these printed as merch for the shop but eventually decided not to. Just a change of heart. Sharing them because they might be of more use to you. Feel free to print for yourself. PERSONAL USE only, please and thank you!
