To live for the hope of it all
But I can see us lost in the memory
August slipped away into a moment in time
'Cause it was never mine
Did I really just want to draw Taylor Swift’s ‘august’ because, well, August? Why yes, yes I did.
(I know, I know. August ain’t over yet, but I wanted to send this early before I get consumed by life.)
I took myself out on a couple of dates this month. Had a lot of days associated with aimless wandering. Suspended in the air, looking at myself from a third person’s point of view. And with it comes the relentless thought that I should be doing something more worthwhile.
How freeing it must be to not equate life fulfillment to accomplishment. What a comforting feeling. What a terrifying thought.
I wish someone would tell me that things will work out. An unfailing sign that it will all fall into place. Something unquestionable. A click, a crumb. Instead, I am told that it might. It just might.
August. I am waiting it out ’til everything makes a little more sense.
Everything, in time,
Louise
P.S. I promise that next month’s letter will be lighter – because I finally have things I am looking forward to – though I should really learn to not be dependent on such things. For now, I am allowing myself to just live for the hope of it all.
August kwento, things, and quick links
Trying out every coffee from Paya St. Coffee, lol. They’re affordable (compared to other coffee shops near me) and tastes gud. 5 stars, will recommend. Ayoko pala yung black sesame kasi talagang di lang for me kapag hindi kape. Other than that, I’m happy!
Slowly replacing all my old merch with things and designs that give “sparks.” Opening the online shop this month (on the 25th! NCT Dream’s anniv kasi gusto ko lang haha) so I hope that goes at least okay, if not well. Really only selling things that make kutitap to my life, heehee.
Going back to my coping mechanism of painting my nails. I checked out so many colors and have been painting my nails almost every other day. Just like how I used to during exams season in college. (ganda lang ambag momints adskdsf)
This comic on happiness by ND Stevenson
Junny’s new album, Blanc, is out and I love it. And I just luv his genius music-producing brain so much!! ++ Dive Studios’ podcasts will be back. World is healing eme.
“TLDR: Dating makes me sad, I just want to be loved.” – from this post by @jisoupy. FELT WITH EVERY INCH OF ME!
Thoroughly enjoyed reading Serena Williams words on her ‘retirement.’
P.P.S. Yung sinabi ko last month na crush ko, love ko na ata ngayon. 🙂🗡 Pakipulot na lang po ako sa kapitbahay fandom jusmiyo 💀
P.P.P.S. Ticket selling ng NCT 127 con today, ipagdasal niyo ko please juseyo. IIYAK AKO! KAILANGAN KO MAKITA MGA OG BEBEQUOH.
That’s all, folks! Talk to you again soon.
