Don’t be sad
It’s the last day of August. Last night was the first in quite a while that I slept “early.” Early being anything before 3 AM. And I wake up and check my phone. (I know this, too, is unhealthy but I stopped trying to correct it at this point.) I see an email from a random person. He sent me a photo of a postcard he bought years ago. He said he was reminiscing old memories; and that sadly, the person he bought the card for is no longer present.
His email was sent in the wee hours of the morning. Times I should usually be awake, still. I knew if I saw it as it was sent, I wouldn’t be able to sleep at all. I don’t personally know him, or his girlfriend, but my August journal piece is for both of them.
Don’t Be Sad is a song I have very strong feelings for. (Luh! Pero true!!) It’s a song I play, well, when I’m sad. The melody just soothed me the first time I heard it. I know it’s literally telling me to not be sad, but it also makes me feel that it’s okay to be sad.
I can’t promise you that everything will turn out well, but like this song – I still want to tell you that it will. Not all days will be good but every now and then, I hope you are still able to yearn and find pockets of happiness.
The past year has been heartbreaking for many, if not all. Everyday, we walk on eggshells trying to live the most normal way we could in this far from normal world. Or let me rephrase that – everyday, we walk on eggshells trying to live. Just live. And hoping the ones we love get through this, too.
To anon: Please know that I appreciate your story a lot. Much more than how I could reply to your email. I hope today is better for you than it was. And if not, I hope someday, it will be.
And to whoever reads this: (and to myself as well) I also wish you happiness. In whatever circumstance you are in. I often tell myself to not be sad, because anong karapatan ko diba? (What right do I have?) There are many others having it worse. That living enough is such a lucky thing. But if today is sad for you – please know that it is not just you who feels this languishing feeling. It is okay to feel that way. It is okay to feel. As sadness comes, I hope happiness knocks on your heart, too.
P.S. Tell people you love them.
Feeling small but hopeful,
Louise
