On Quarantine Thoughts

Posting this mid-April, it’s been more than a month since quarantine started. My notes and drafts have been piling up (and so has anxiety.) You might think time will make things easier, but it has not. And it might not. To be honest, I don’t even know what to expect when things go back to normal – most likely, there is no normal to go back to. This is not just another glitch in the timeframe, not a reset, nor a break. Yet we still look forward to the day when it all ends. Because it’s one of the things we can do and hope for to stay sane.

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I’m extremely lucky of the privilege I have – having a home to stay at, food on our table, a work from home option. Yet, even with all the help I can give, there’s only so much my privilege can do for others who do not have the same luck. For them, uncertainty is scarier than it is beautiful.

Uncertain times call for uncertain emotions. You can stay pressed and be mad and sad and unmotivated, and even then, hopeful. You can demand for accountability! The mass of all your emotions is valid. In these trying times, you too, are also trying to get through it.

It’s a hard time to stay positive, but for now, hold on to the better days we long for. Even if just to convince ourselves that it exists. That maybe if we say it enough, it’ll happen. And maybe it could add something good, even if just a little, in a not-so-good world.

When all of this is over, know it isn’t the end.

P.S. to you reading this: I hope you’re doing well where you are. Aside from staying home, I hope you find ways to stay sane through it all.

xo,
Louise